Sometimes it's easier to list things.

- I had a nightmare sometime last night and woke up crying this morning. I can't remember what happened.
- Fin. I'm backsliding. My thought process is going places it shouldn't, and it's more embarrassing than anything. Fuck. I'm back to some sort of undefinable nausea in the moments when I'm alone and just existing, at least on occasion. He wants to be friends (again, according to him, although I'd argue we never were friends. He must think otherwise). I don't know what I'm going to do.
- I baked cookies with Erika today, and she was adorable. Helping me by pouring things in and stirring in her two-year-old sort of way.
- I feel prettier when I wear dresses. I've lucked out in the past few days, because the weather has been really nice.
- I think a guy in his mid-20's may have been hitting on me at work a few days ago. If I had any experience with actually dating instead of just fucking, I would probably be able to tell if he was or not. How does one know when they're being hit on?
- I re-read a Hotch/Reid series (Criminal Minds pairing) today. I forgot how good it was. Tons of smut, yes, but eloquent smut touching on psychological spousal abuse, rules. Some really nice character studies.
- Living with a toddler can be exhausting when all you want is five minutes to yourself, but I don't really think I'd change it.
- I miss Brandon. We've not spoken properly in far too long.
- I re-discovered Stars today, I forgot how awesome they were.
- I miss Lost already.