I feel like I'm breaking apart. I'm losing bits of me daily, losing limbs, muffled ears with cotton-balls and feeling ghosts in my fingertips. Sensations, experiences, nothing is touching me right now. I feel like I'm breaking down. I'm terrified. I don't know when it started, I just want it to end. I want my head to be fixed and I'll be happy and normal again. But I don't know how to do it. And people keep leaving, because they get fed up that I can't fix me and that I think they don't care and I don't know how to make them stay, I don't know how to say what I need to.

I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel. I just can't see it right now, my vision is blurred.